Lagging Behind

I feel like this picture is very symbolic of how I feel this week: like I’m lagging behind everyone else.

I’m slow to get up to do my workouts in the morning.

Slow to get the beds made and house straightened.

Slow to finish projects I’ve started.

And I’m most definitely lagging behind in the parenting department. Emily is giving me a run for my money this week, and I feel like I have zero patience left. The crying, the whining, the blatant disregard for my answers when she asks if she can do something . . .add to that her need to be by me and talking to me all day long . . . and multiply that by the two mornings a week she cries for two hours before preschool drop off . . .and it equals a mama who feels a little frazzled and didn’t take many pictures this week . . .thus you have this rambling blog post!

There is a very respected blogger whom I’ve followed since I had Lucy (Kristina at Toddler Approved, if anyone is interested). Today she posted on Instagram that she had not yet put out any fall or Halloween decorations, which is very unlike her. She explained that she’s always tired and that everything seems harder to accomplish this year. Good gracious, did that resonate with me!

If I’m being honest, the pandemic has not even affected us in any NEGATIVE major ways. Matty still has his job, all of our family is healthy, we have a roof over our heads. If anything, it changed our lives for the better because Matty is working from home now. However, lots of little stressors can just kind of slowly eat away at my ability to feel like I’m making good choices. . . and I’m so tired of thinking! Do we let the kids trick or treat? Will we do indoor playdates this winter? Can we get together with all of our family at once for the holidays? Is that a cough or is it Covid? Why did I eat that cupcake? Will I ever see all my mama friends together at once again? Will I ever HUG my friends again? Are my kiddos HAPPY?? Where are all these gray hairs coming from???

So there you have it. That’s where I’m at right now.

This week I threw myself into starting my Christmas shopping, and I think it’s because I shine at Christmas time. #tootingmyownhorn

I am great at buying gifts, I love decorating our house, and making things feel magical for the girls makes me happy. If there’s one time of year when I know what I’m doing and how to do it . . . it’s Christmas. I love the coziness, the reflection, and the promise of a fresh new start . . . because we all could use one right about now.

Some people might roll their eyes at the fact that I’m focusing on Christmas already, but anything that makes me feel more like the Molly of eight months ago and not like the Molly who can’t quite get to where she wants to be is a plus in my book!

Ok, enough of that! Jeez Louise, Molly!

Like I said . . . very few pictures this week, but I did catch this one of Lucy and Penelope’s daily after school reunion. It’s pretty epic every single day!

Have a great weekend!

XOXO

PS: I think it’s also worth mentioning that my computer is on the fritz. #again I’m going to use this thing until the very bitter end, but if I go radio silent for a week or two at some point before the end of the year, it’s probably because it finally died it’s ever so slooooow death and I’m working on getting a new one.